Teacher Tranning Programme VS UTAR

"Everyone rushing for future,
Everyone striving hard for future.
This is the process of life.
But at the end nothing bring along to coffin"

Sometimes ,I am thinking ,"Why do people need to strive so hard ,and at the end nothing can bring along into the coffin". Haha . Such a nonsense right? But it is real. At the end we bring nothing to coffin with us. Leave UTAR for about 3 months already. Recently I am busy with my assignments ,and I think all of us will be the same. Neither presentation nor assignment even don’t have time to go toilet for long call and short call. haha. it is real.I didn’t cheat.And everyday do assignment till 4 or 5 am.Even experienced never sleep at all till the next morning just to finish the social study assingment.Walao.I felt proud of myself.18years staying in this world.I didnt tried to do homework untill burning my midnight oil till the next morning.Maybe I should suitable myself in this type of lifestyle and maybe at the end i will end up with lots of health problems,but no another ways for me to achieve my goal setting.Who call me to chose this way,love what you had chosen.Chose what you love.I know although the process is challenging but i am sure i will gain back what i have put effort in.
Teacher Training program me is totally different from other tertiary study ,compare with UTAR which I had enjoyed my life in there for about one month,
1.UTAR at least we no need always force ourselves to smile towards all the senior, but here it is very important, although how sad you are, how tired you are, how lazy you are, YOU ARE COMPULSORY AND MUST smile with all the senior and call then :"Senior in halo", all this just because you are the super junior.
2.In UTAR we only study for about 6 subjects(if I am not mistaken),but here is study for 13 subject. But only 3 of our 13 subject is our major subject which will separated into many part, as an example Chinese study will separated into 7 parts like Chinese history, Chinese pronunciations, Chinese literature, Chinese cultural literacy, antique Chinese the inking, public speaking and deliberate antique reading materials. Haha. You can imagine that in this Chinese subject, you are a lecturer, lecturer are you. Lecturer will simply give out a title and call us present in on the next lesson. So, it is not hard to study in here, but it is hard to finish allot of this type of homework. We do not have any notes that is arranged like UTAR, the note we present will be the notes for the class. You can fell how width of our study it is, just depends on how you going to locating the ideas that lecturer gave. Not only that, the another 10 subjects we study is just to lets us have a concept, because the reason is "You ere going to become a teacher, thus you must know whatever although that is not related in our daily life”. So every subject we have to do assingment, presantation and lots of lots of homework like practical and so on.
3.Attire.''YOU ARE GOING TO BECOME A TEACHER,WHAT YOU WEAR,HOW YOU WEAR WILL REFLEX THE IMAGE OF A TEACHER", haha.Everything just because "YOU ARE GOING TO BECOME A TEACHER,THEN YOU NEED TO..."can make us speechless and just obey. Everyday formal and must skirt for a girl. Haha.You all sure cant imagine how does I CHIN HUI LING look like when wearing formal with skirt. haha.
4.social intercourse. In UTAR ,if you are not free not interested, you can chose to do not attend yourself into any activities, but here. It is COMPULSORY."FULL COMMITMENT IS VERY IMPORTANT TO BECOME A PROFESIONAL TEACHER".haha.All the society and club is compulsory to attend because it is counted as a credit in our result. So no matter how busy you are. How unwilling you are. You also need to force your body to "take place" in the scence.Haha.Besides,there are a lots of meeting to attend besides the club and society. Everyday will suddenly announce something, then all the planning that I planned earlier will been force to cancel. So as a teacher after 5 years time, I am sure I will already prepared myself towards heart attact.Haha.
Due to my hand is very tired. So I have to end up my bog for today. Hope you guys get the imagination of my life over here, though it is busy but it is chalenging,because I like challenged myself.Hehe.I am "bean tai " de.Haha.one things I forgot to say is "congratulation to TA1 students, your exam was over,xue wei,jemy zai ,xTA1-Vei in I i mizz you all a lotz,all the best for your daily undertakings ,i have read all of your blog when free,jemy satisfy?haha.so kambateh for our life ya.Must think of me where I am be far form each other k""Friendship Forever"

二十四孝。。我并不孝。。

今天真的很气自己。。
明明记得今天是妈的生乐。。
却一托再托。。。
赶功课。。。从早上七点多赶到半夜两点多。。。

结果到了晚上十二点多才突然想起忘了祝妈。。。
我真的很不孝。。。
身为一个女儿尽然能忘记十月怀胎生下我的妈。。。
我还有资格说什么吗？
我真的太没用了。。。
太太太没用了。。。
很内疚。。。
真很内疚。。。
很气自己怎么会这样没心肝。。。

妈，对不起我忘了问候你的生日。。。


只想说一声 ：“妈，生日快乐”。。。

中国五千年历史..拿命！

快呀疯了啦！
什么跟什么？
根本听没有？
快一个月多了？
讲师所说的一句也听不明白？
因为自己对中国的底子不深。。。
根本跟不上。。。
起码拉曼大学的是以前有所接触的。。
也是自己喜欢。。
自己的强项。。。
现在好像一个什么都不懂的幼儿园学生。。。
呆呆的。。。
目瞪口呆的上课。。。
再过一个月就得考试了。。。
怎么考啊？
救命啊。。。
多希望有个人能来打救我。。
把中国这五千年伟大的记载一一讲解给我听。。。
感激不尽啊！
可是也不会有人这么好气得空吧！
算了吧！
唯有靠自己咯！
谁要你选这条路啊！
爱你所选。。。选你所爱。。
加油吧！

生活也许就是一种过程

生命的意义到底是什么？

令人迷惘的问题。。

有时在想。。。

或许这就是生命的一个过程吧!

我活着的意义是否还存在？

我迷惘。。。

或许我还没及探讨这问题。。。

就已被身边的事和物给忙坏了脑袋。。。

于是我发觉。。。

我并不是我要的我。。。

只是迎合世俗的我。。。

我到底去了哪？

。。。我迷惘。。。